And. . . She’s Back!

I just wanted to let everyone know (everyone being anyone who happens upon my site) that my blog is badly in need of updating. Of course, if you ever visit my site. . . you know that. Just to get you a TAD up to speed: Our 2008 apprenticeship year ended well, with an “eighties- themed” birthday party for staff member Daleen and many farewells among the apprentices, their ministry friends, and us.

In the interim time between apprenticeships, Barbara and I had a South African Christmas, visiting friends in the nearby township of Soshanguve after a slumber party with two girlfriends on Christmas Eve. The two months for me were blessed with much time with Soshanguve friends, especially those in “Granny’s family,” a family of mostly women and children whom we’ve gotten to know well over the years. I have enjoyed praying for Wholesome Bakery on Mondays, a new business venture managed by Granny’s youngest daughter Emily at her house in Block KK. I also enjoyed greatly a trip I took to Port Elizabeth (on the coast) with fellow staff members Barbara, Bryan, Daleen, and Dayna (with her husband Tony), and our good friend who’s been our landlord these past months, Elizabeth.

All in all it’s been a full-but-good two months and now, as we are wrapping up preparations for the new apprenticeship year, I am in that in-between state of readiness, not sure of how all the new changes will feel. Please pray, if you think of me, for my energy level as we begin a three-week-long orientation. And pray for divinely smooth transitions for our new (eight) apprentices and exceptional unity for our staff. I covet prayers right now and will continue to update folks on how to pray.

So there’s the “short” synopsis. I hope to write again soon. 

God bless, and stay well!!

Sarah

Portraits

Recently I’ve had the chance to do some portraits for people who have been interested. One set was for the Stewart family, for their yearly family portrait. Unfortunately, I was a bit late to their house so we only had a wedge of sunlight left to work with in the nearby park. Many of them were not so great because of it, but there were a few really cute ones, even if not the ideal- this was one (from left to right, Arthur-Paul, Melissa, Arthur, Iain, and Mairin):

I also had the awesome privilege of helping to fulfill a little dream that my friend Busi has had for a while of doing a certain style of photo for her, dressed in a sheet- kind of like in Roman times. We did some really amazing shots in my backyard, mostly in black and white, but this one was really classic and gives you some idea of the set-up:

It has been fun to get back into photography a bit, especially as I haven’t yet gotten back to my art. But this is a type of art! Portraits, especially like the ones I did for Busi, are my favorite type of photography- it is just an amazing feeling to be able to speak to someone, through the lens of your camera, how beautiful she is. . .

Raining Jacaranda

It is the time of the jacaranda here in Pretoria North, South Africa. The weather is humid, sometimes hot, and the past week or two, has been on the verge of storm. Jacarandas, common to California as well, are in full bloom now, and especially at our “home base” Pangani, the purple blossoms seem to be constantly raining down on us, the ground, and our cars. Here is a photo to give you an idea of the trees, the ominous clouds, and the wind, which has also been rather prevalent. (The other night there was a hint of rain and I nearly rejoiced in full but it was short-lived. We have yet to see a good rain for this season.)

The House on Rus Street

So, I too often (as with many things) chide myself for not posting on here enough. The past few days, I have recognized the unwanted, unprecedented amount of guilt I allow in my life on a daily basis, and today other well-meaning friends helped me to remember that such guilt- well, actually, it is not biblical. There is conviction and remorse and regret that lead to repentance and then moving on. But guilt? It’s mostly manufactured by that little creep some refer to as the devil.

My dilemma: Here I am, sitting in (go figure) “the sitting room” at Pangani, thinking I should just post some pictures on here, and realizing that the most recent, relevant ones I have that I’d like to post are at home on my camera. But my desire to rid myself of my unnecessary guilt in this case has overridden my sense of what’s “reasonable,” (plus, I just feel like writing and posting pics =)) and so I decided: I am just going to post some pictures of something that is quite relevant to my life lately, and actually plays a notable part in my life as of late: the house that I live in on Rus street.

I’ll just try to find some that some of you might find amusing/interesting/worthy of your gaze. They’re not all new pics, but new to many of you. . . and that’s what matters, right?

On another day I’ll bring you into the life that I live outside of my house (I actually do live one) in South Africa as a NieuCommunities staff person doing life and mission with others. But for now, we’ll start with what’s comfortable- what’s “sweet”- with where I reside- where I sleep- begin- rest- do the majority of my thinking and grieving and rejuvinating. And without further adieu. . .

An example of what our garage looked like before we transformed it into a place to park a car and create great art.

Birds of Paradise at our neighbors

Our other neighbors (over the fence behind our yard)

Our grass produced monsters before we got a gardener.

Ma laundry

Our "electricity box" that we recharge every few weeks.

Hose from our ghetto washing machine ("Remember to hook the hose over the sink")

My room, before the final rearrangement ("final" is relative)

Our bathtub and triangular mirror.

Latest Update

Hi friends,

Sorry for not updating sooner! Most of it had to do with the fact that I have been quite busy getting settled and transitioning into this new position as staff with NieuCommunities South Africa (NCSA). It’s amazing when I think about it, all that has happened in the past month and a half since my arrival end of May. Aside from getting to know the apprentices and the usual chaos of regular schedule, hosting guests, attending important events (baby showers, birthdays, and sadly, a funeral of a very dear friend of ours), a staff retreat here, an urban ministry consultation there, starting to see a spiritual director (all of the staff are encouraged to have something of the sort), and visiting our beloved “Granny’s family” in the informal settlement of Soshanguve, Barbara and I have officially moved into a house, bought a car, secured pre-paid cell phones, and are still getting to know the ins and outs of renting a home here, including working out plumbing issues, “recharging” the electricity each month, and trying to stay warm with our space heaters heating one room at a time. Yeah, it’s July, but man, it is “winter” here.

A little background on our house: When I was still back in the States, Barbara had decided on this house to rent from our friend Elizabeth (“Lizzy”)- technically it belongs to her elder brother who is serving in Iraq, so she is standing in as our landlord for a year or so. My favorite part about the house is this: It is on “Rus” Street, directly down the street (1.5k or about 1mi.) from the NCSA headquarters guesthouse, Pangani. A week or so of living in our new house, Barbara informed me that Lizzy had told her “Rus” meant “rest” in Afrikaans. I can’t tell you how much that “sealed the deal” for me as far as our new home went. A major theme for me the past few years has been to listen to God as He calls me to “rest,” and most recently, since transitioning to staff, hearing a clear call from Him that He would like me to be a “Woman of Rest,” who communicates rest to others. Honestly, I still don’t have that particular call figured out yet, but I’m working on it.

Which brings me to what specifically I have been doing for the past month in particular. Soon after I got here, I met with our director Arthur a few times, and he suggested that I take a month as a sort of “Just Arrived” month to work on my personal “settling in” priority list. I jumped at the opportunity, and so for the past four weeks have been focusing on such things like medical and health insurance issues, support and other matters of finance, finding a spiritual mentor and a bible tutor, buying a car and home furnishings, establishing regular time with God, setting up things that are “life-giving” to me such as art and exercise, organizing various folders and information, getting to know the apprentices and engaging in community activities as I can, and working on the “Personal Covenant” that each staff must create, thinking realistically about the commitments I’d like to make in the areas of “Communion,” “Community,” and “Mission,” and dreaming about what my role as staff might look like.

That may sound like a lot, and it has been! It has been exciting too as I have felt the grace of being given this period of time to learn, to focus, and to listen more to God as to what I should do as opposed to other demands or priorities. I’ve mostly appreciated starting to get my emotional and physical health stuff under control, addressing spiritual needs (as I had left the States feeling fairly drained and pretty needy in that area), taking in the culture around me in a fresh new way since last year as an apprentice, finding rest and peace and comfort at our house as we’ve been slowly buying furniture and personalizing little things, and just letting the thought of “I really live here now” soak in. I am so grateful for the time to transition, as I’ve felt a bit unanchored up until now.

I won’t lie to you though, some things have been harder than I expected. Much of this whole experience to me is quite new- probably one of the biggest transitions of my life if not the biggest. For me, it marks a commitment I have made in my heart that is quite large for a lady not completely used to life-altering decisions or commitment in general (turning twenty-nine tomorrow, and yes, still no significant other =)). Identifying oneself in the “missionary” category, no matter how un-traditional it may be, really sets one apart or at least automatically betrays the seriousness of your faith to those who may not have realized what a “big deal” it was to you beforehand, to those you newly meet, and even to those who have known you for years. Also the step from what we call at NieuCommunities “apprentice” to “staff” is more expansive than I expected. I’m not sure if I thought that this time in South Africa I would wake up equipped with all of the gifts and knowledge that a seasoned staff-person has or what, but it’s clearly just not that way. From day 1, God has been shaping me and informing me of my weaknesses, my true strengths, and where I may need to yield in order to work in the area of either of them, and it is not always a pleasant process. But I’ve been reminded that Jesus’ “yoke is easy, and [his] burden is light” (Matthew 11:30), and that has been helping me. Not to mention, a little help from my friends =).

To at least touch on our current apprentices this year and a little Africa update, as I’m sure folks may be curious about both. . .

• The apprentices: Let me just say that we have a very diverse group this year. Ethnically, they are all in the “Caucasian” category, but one is a native South African, one a Canadian, and the rest are spread out over the U.S. (from Florida to Georgia to Virginia Beach to Illinois to California). Four females, and four males (much more balanced than our 4:1 female to male ratio last year). Everyone is quite different in personality but there is a lot of creativity among the group (many musicians, artists, writers, a closet actor, and even a seamstress). There are many natural leaders in the group and blossoming leaders, and each apprentice has a fairly unique Christian background, from charismatic to fundamentalist, so. . . it makes for a lot of diversity! In ministry this year, they are serving refugees from Zimbabwe, girls who are victims of trafficking, developmentally disabled children, kids affected by AIDs in a nearby township, and those who are interested in the “emergent church” conversation, among other things.

• As far as Africa goes, Zimbabwe is much more on the media radar over here than in the States, and for a reason- It is not a tolerable situation there to say the least. Mugabe, the current leader, managed to rig the elections ONCE AGAIN, and the inflation, torture, abuse, and famine is abominable. One of our apprentices, Jody, is there right now just for a few days. He’s staying with the family of Manatseh, a Zimbabwean he’s become very close to (who currently lives at Pangani). Jody hopes to provide assurance to churches that we are actively praying on their behalf, and is open to what God might do during this trip. Manatseh fled Zimbabwe, leaving his kids with relatives, only to come to South Africa when xenophobic (“fear of foreigner”) attacks were being unleashed on refugees and immigrants from other African countries. These attacks are still petering out. And as I mentioned, two of our apprentices work directly with Zimbabwean refugees. So please, do not forget Africa in your prayers.

A Few of My Favorite Things. . .
(to give you some idea of what my life is like here in Pretoria North, South Africa):

• Honeybush peach Lipton herbal tea
• Coming “home” on Rus Street, where we have no internet access to distract us, only a bathtub, thus necessitating a relaxing bath, a huge yard (albeit overgrown with weeds) for laying out in the sun, and a nice “stoep” where I sit on the steps to eat my breakfast in the sun (this is important, as our house is otherwise freezing right now in the middle of winter, and any other shaded area for that matter).
• Ingram’s Camphor Cream for after a bath. I discovered it at the store and it has this lovely fragrance from my childhood that I can’t quite place. Makes me feel at home.
• Traditional rooibos tea
• Spontaneous worship with the very musically-talented apprentices.
• Community meals where we are all together and often many exciting, unexpected guests too.
• Thinking about creating my art space in our garage and converting part of an office at Pangani to a “Creative Space” with the apprentices
• Browsing my beautiful, new study bible that some relatives sent me providentially (sea green, with my name engraved on it) before I left the States.
• Our new space heater- the one that blows out hot air from side to side and actually can heat a room.
• Going to “Cherry on Top” (a local diner with anything you could want on the menu, very Afrikaaner-run) like old times with previous mentor and now fellow staff Melissa
• Hanging out with the Stewart kids (Arthur-Paul, Iain, and Mairin)
• Re-uniting with those I did ministry with last year at the Tshwane Leadership Foundation (TLF) and hearing about their hope and undying zeal to transform the city of Pretoria in the name of Jesus’ love.
• In particular, reuniting with Ezekiel, Vestine, and their kids Frank and Happiness, who work for the housing section and women and children’s shelter of TLF, who are from Rwanda and whom I bonded with especially at the end of last year.

And for those of you who experiment with prayer, Prayer Requests. . .

We are currently in the “Contending” posture (the third posture out of six during the year), which involves praying and standing up for ourselves, one another, and others, with God. It is also a time of learning about and confronting the realities of spiritual warfare, and so if you think of us, you can pray for us especially around the areas of protection, unity, guidance, freedom, and healing from many past and current things. Also prayer for health and general well-being and safety. This posture we are also engaging the disciplines of simplicity, fasting, and confession (they all tie into one another), so please pray for us as many of us are trying to live on less for the month of July, are more vulnerable as we fast from food and other things, and are more vulnerable emotionally as we confess and confide more deeply in one another.

I can also use prayer myself for:

o The motivation and energy to run. The altitude is higher here, which makes it difficult in starting out. Also, I recently had an unexplained allergic reaction during my last run, and it was quite disconcerting. So please pray for health in that area too.

o A stronger sense of myself as I am beginning to define my role here.

o Close peer relationships, and the maintaining of mutual respect.

o Learning appropriate boundaries, in all relationships and situations. (I am currently reading and doing a series with some women here on “Boundaries,” a book by Cloud and Townsend. I highly recommend it).

o Grace towards myself as I grow into things here, and the freedom to be myself.

o That all spiritual, mental, emotional, and physical needs (rather than wants) would be filled.

o Time and space for art.

o Continuing to “keep things simple” in accordance to God’s call for me.

o That my ministry goals would be shaped and redefined with ease and clarity. Making a plan for finishing the book of womens’ stories that Barbara and I are doing.

o Clarity to make right decisions/wisdom.

o That all plumbing and house-related issues would be worked out. Also, that getting the registration for our car would go smoothly.

Last Note: Our car (a ’96 Hyundai Accent) only has a cassette player, so if you feel like sending anything, cassettes of really great music would be my only wish. We do a fair amount of driving and the radio station selections (most of them a mixture of many things) only go so far. Please send to: 106 Emily Hobhouse Ave., Pretoria North 0182 South Africa.

Keep well. And until I post again,
God bless,
Sarah

No wait. Of course. I’ll leave you with some photos.

Me on Front Stoep of Our New Home

My Beloved Rus (means "rest" in Afrikaans) Street on Which Barbara and I Now Live

The Look Lizzy (landlord and dear friend) and I Exchanged at My Birthday Dinner at First Bite of Homemade Chocolate Cake (I had a fabulous birthday by the way, spinster and all)

A Few of My Books

Our New Car (I bought while Barbara was in Vancouver B.C. for a conference)- 1996 Hyundai Accent

NCSA Staff Daleen with Bahati, Our Friends Luc and Petunia's Daughter, at Bahati's First Birthday (Luc and Petunia are on staff with Innerchange, another minstry with CRM, and recently moved to the township of Soshanguve to launch and incarnate that ministry)

Me, Barbara, Winnie, and Melissa at Granny's House for a Small Baby Shower We Had for Winnie, one of Granny's Grandaughters and a New Mom

Like I said, just a few. I’ll post more when I can!

Safe Arrival

Hello, All!

Guess where I am??? You guessed it! South Africa!

I arrived safely yesterday around 7:20am in the Johannesburg airport. Our site director Arthur, his eldest son Arthur-Paul, and one of the apprentices, Chris, picked me up. I was extremely grateful, laden with heavy luggage and somewhat disoriented by the reconstruction of the airport, to have some familiar and soon-to-be-familiar faces greet me, guide me out of the airport, and drive me (back on the left side of the road) to my new home!

God blessed me with needed times of rest on all of my flights, from Portland to Chicago to London to Jo’burg. I even got a couple of hours sleeping on comfy airport chairs in the London Heathrow airport among others who had the same idea.

Since being back at Pangani, the NieuCommunities’ main site and guesthouse where all the apprentices stay (where co-staff Barbara and I are staying until we move into our own place in two weeks), I have felt very wrapped in God’s love. He knows even better than I do what I have left behind, what awaits me in my new life here, all that I feel I must do to wrap up and process things from being in Portland, and all of the new responsibilities that await me as new staff here. And I feel that He is giving me time and space right now, to just adjust, and to be. I appreciate that- more than anything.

Because of this new-felt freedom from God, I am enjoying getting to know the apprentices here this year (eight of them- four guys and four girls), as well as reconnecting with others whom I had known before. And again, I feel God’s grace as I do, reminding me that I have all year to get to know folks and that it’s okay for me to not have the frenetic type of schedule, fitting things in, and daily, weekly, and monthly To-Do lists that I had grown so accustomed to the past few months. (I know I will start writing lists again soon, but God is reminding me right now of their arbitrary nature sometimes).

Right now I am staying at Pangani myself with fellow new staff Barbara in the extra house on the property. In two weeks, though, another couple and their kids are joining our community for the rest of the year and they’ll be staying in this house. So Barbara (who I affectionately refer to as “BJ”) found a place for us (while I was preparing to come in the past few weeks) and we’ll be moving into it on June 12th. It is actually our good friend Elizabeth’s brother’s house that he is renting out for a while (we’ll probably be there about a year). It’s only about a kilometer from Pangani, which is ideal as we will be coming and going there for community activities regularly. I may post pictures of it on here when I have more time!

For now, I’ll give you my mailing address. It is just the address for Pangani, as that is the most convenient place to have mail sent. So if you’d like to write or send me anything, you can mail to here:

106 Emily Hobhouse Ave.

Pretoria North 0182

South Africa

I will be continuing to update you and in the meantime, I am so grateful to all those who sent me off with love from Portland. Stay tuned and many blessings from “across the universe-” okay, just the world, I guess.

Love, Sarah

Quick Update

Just a quick update since I last wrote. I have secured a ticket for Johannesburg for May 29th and am very excited about that. It felt good to make that decisive step and now am continuing with preparations before I leave in three weeks. For those of you who wondered how I came to my decision of not attending the Amahoro conference in Rwanda this year, see my entry below, “May Day: The Verdict.”

I have a little left to raise for my monthly goal (at the time that I’m writing, 20%), and am following up with those who have expressed an interest in giving as well as those who are interested in hearing more in person about my ministry vision for the next couple of years.

As far as Rwanda goes, I know that I can always go back to visit some other day. I also am realizing how much I still have left to process from my last trip there, and what a blessing it was to be able to go last November. I am thankful for that and don’t want to take it for granted. I am continuing to keep in touch with some people I had met there the first time, and I feel that our connections are only growing stronger with time and distance even. If God does call me to return, I will be delighted when it is the right timing.

I want to thank those of you who have been reading about my own story. I am honored that people would be so interested, and it just confirms to me how fascinating we find stories of individuals to be. That was somewhat of a surprise, when I noticed that that is the page that’s getting the most viewing on my blog. I have been deeply blessed by those of you who have commented or were inspired to tell me things about your own lives’ journeys.

Well I will be in touch again when I know what my address in South Africa is. My friend Barbara, ministry partner and fellow new staff-person has been back in Pretoria two weeks and next week will start searching for an apartment for the two of us. Right now she is staying at NieuCommunities’ historic guest house “Pangani,” but I may be joining her someplace else when I return.

More later. Shalom.

Sarah skwoolley.girl@gmail.com (503) 789-8971

May Day: The Verdict

Hello, Friends.

Well, it’s May 1st! Today, if I was going to Rwanda, I was going to buy a ticket. Things don’t always work out as you planned. . .

I did come to a decision yesterday, through a rather intense day of listening to a friend, thinking, praying, and, for maybe the first time in a long time now, letting myself just “be” with God. I came to see that for many reasons, going to the Amahoro conference (which was my plan A in returning to Africa), was not wise at this time. I guess it took the pressure of a deadline for me to finally come to terms with that. It actually has less to do with the level of support I am at and more to do with what God wants to do in and through me before I leave Oregon.

I do want to apologize to those of you who have been tracking and hoping with me up to this point. Those who know me well know how much it was on my heart to go to Rwanda for this conference, and others were very encouraging as I pursued the possibility. Funny thing is, it actually was a possibility. But just because you “can” doesn’t always mean you “should.” Going to Rwanda became too much the focal point and narrow-minded vision for me right now. I was foregoing other relationships, overlooking last preparations I have to do before I leave, and forgetting where I am ultimately going that I want to mentally, physically, and spiritually prepare for- South Africa. It is actually an experience I’d like to write more about someday.

My grandma, wise woman that she is =), wrote me to gently suggest a “plan C,” and I think she was right. Aren’t grandmas always right? The general gist is that God-willing, I will leave for Pretoria, South Africa at the end of the month of May. I should be updating this at least once more before I leave. Although I very much wanted to go to the Amahoro conference in Rwanda, I am also rather relieved and know that I am doing the right thing.

Support-wise, I am doing quite well and feel God prompting me to continue with my progress and connections with people. I will continue to keep in touch and let you know how things pan out. Pretty soon, I’ll be able to post my address in South Africa! Thanks for your prayers, your endless support, and your interest.

Sarah

Email: skwoolley.girl@gmail.com Phone: (503) 789-8971

My Life is Like the Morning Fog

First of all, thank you to those of you who have been faithful in following through with the donations you have pledged or given. I hope you know how much I appreciate it. You have helped me get closer to my goal! I also want to honor all the kind words, encouragement, and prayer support as well, which are invaluable.

I thought I would update those of you who are interested to hear where I’m at, both support-wise and personally.

Where I’m at With the “Plans”

I am currently at 65% of my monthly goal and 100% of my relocation expense. So it is coming along! And that is very exciting. I had wanted to be further along in order to purchase a plane ticket in accordance with “plan A” (see post below). Thus, I have a revised plan. Let’s call it: “plan A, part 2″ (this is so dorky, excuse the dorkiness). The revised plan is to head straight to Rwanda from here, leaving around May 15th. After the Amahoro Conference, I will return to South Africa and commence being NieuCommunities staff! I still have to work out the details of luggage, and getting a cheap ticket (thankfully, I have found some good possibilities online). However, I really wouldn’t feel comfortable buying the ticket until I’m at more like at least 80% (ideally, 90%) of my monthly goal. So my newest deadline for reaching that amount is this Thursday, May 1st.

I want to be sure to communicate that I want this in no way to pressure anyone into either a.) feeling that they have to give or b.) feeling that they have to decide immediately on a commitment. The process is the same. I would still love to meet with any of you who are interested in hearing more about it all in person. For those of you who may be considering giving and who do pray, I encourage you to ask God how God would specifically have you partner with me in this. I will be checking back in with those of you who have expressed an interest. Although my greatest need at this point is for monthly or annual donors, I would just ask you to “sit” with God about it, whether for a few moments or a few days. I greatly appreciate donations of any kind, and no amount is ever too small. For those of you who already have an amount or commitment on your heart, if you have a chance to make the actual donation before May 1st I would greatly appreciate it. Just click in the sidebar on “Donate to Sarah” and choose from a couple of options. Please ask me if you have any questions too.

You can contact me at: (503) 789-8971 or skwoolley.girl@gmail.com

Where I’m at Personally/Spiritually

Now, after telling you about my plans. . . To put it bluntly, I am learning that God’s plans look relatively nothing like my own. Granted, while I feel that God is with me in my revised plan (or at least tolerating it), I also am constantly reminded lately that God’s ways are above my ways. Thinking about this earlier today, a certain verse came to me and I looked it up. It is in the book of James, chap. 4, vs. 14-15: “How do you know what will happen tomorrow? For your life is like the morning fog- it’s here a little while, then it’s gone. What you ought to say is, ‘If the Lord wants us to, we will live and do this or that.’” I felt God nudging me toward more of this way of thinking and away from my goal-oriented, plan-driven one. This is more of the attitude that I want to embody.

The past couple of days, God and I have been coming to a head with this issue, as I’ve felt like I’ve been struggling, striving so hard to make things “happen.” When I got home today from meeting with a really good friend who’s in transition herself and with whom I share particular mental health issues, I felt led to open my “little black book.” It’s actually this tiny little book I’ve been writing things in the past four years- and it’s not even halfway full! But I write down quotes I come across, notes to myself, scripture, etc. I’d like to share with you some of what I found that stuck out to me:

Note to self, 18th of June (some year): “I forgot that- that things work when you stop trying to make them work.”

Also: Ecclesiastes 7:13 “Notice the way God does things; then fall into line. Don’t fight the ways of God, for who can straighten out what he has made crooked?”

This last one is for all of us and is the reason why I dug out the book (cute little leather-bound one I bought in Seattle with my dad, BTW). It is also the very first thing written in it. I encourage you to read it slowly, note your reaction to it, and let whatever truth you find in it sink in: “At the last Judgement Christ will say to us, ‘Come, children of shame!’ And he will say to us: ‘Vile beings, you who are in the image of the beast and bear his mark, but come all the same, you as well.’ And the wise and prudent will say, ‘Lord, why do you welcome them?’ And he will say: If I welcome them, you wise men, if I welcome them, you prudent men, it is because not one of them has ever been judged worthy.’ And he will stretch out his arms, and we will fall at his feet, and we will cry out sobbing, and then we will understand all, we will understand the Gospel of grace! Lord, your Kingdom come!” -Fyodor Dostoevsky’s “Crime and Punishment,” reference from Brennan Manning’s “Ragamuffin Gospel”

P.S. My greatest prayer requests at this time include being God-focused, healthy, receptive to wisdom and discernment, protection, peace of mind, hope, faith, love, and the last but most important one at this time is grace. I recently forgot that I needed it. It happens. Thank you and God bless.

Plans A & B and a New Box

Hello, friends. And sorry for the delay. . .

What is going on with the Woolley-Monster? (As my Afrikaaner friend Elizabeth calls me). Well! As it stands now, I have one week until my support goal date of April 26th. Less than one week. Hee hee. By that date, I would like to be at a certain percentage level of support in order to buy two plane tickets- one to South Africa, and one to Rwanda. I am trying to attend a week-long conference in Rwanda called “Amahoro” (see “Amahoro Africa” in sidebar) that starts May 19th. In order to make it to South Africa in time to recover from jet-lag, drop off my bags, say hello to the community of NCSA 2008, and get on a plane to Kigali, I would like to leave the U.S. no later than May 14th, preferably before that. This is my first choice and what I’m trying for, but if it doesn’t work out. . . I’ve grieved over worse things before. I’m flexible and ultimately want to be obedient to God’s timing, so we’ll see how it goes.

Why Amahoro? There are a few reasons why I’d like to attend this conference called Amahoro- a general African term for “peace.” Firstly, it fits very well with my personal vision statement (click in sidebar to read more) of helping to tell the stories of the disadvantaged, the broken, the disheartened. I attended a week-long trip to Kigali last November- at the very end of our NCSA year- and it was quite transformational. For those of you who don’t know, Rwanda underwent a horrific genocide in 1994. Within the span of 100 days, as many as one million people were slaughtered. I have had a heart for Rwanda and her people for a few years now, and getting to visit it last year was a dream fulfilled by God. We visited churches doing amazing healing and spiritual transformation work, as well as some projects (see www.reach-rwanda.org) doing some serious reconciliation work. We also visited genocide memorials and got to hear many testimonies of former victims and perpetrators alike. “Amahoro” will also be addressing issues such as reconciliation and peace throughout all of Africa, as well as uniting leaders in the church as they seek what it means to be the church in a post-colonial Africa. I hope that one day I might be able to help tell some of the stories of Rwandans, and know I will get to reconnect with many whom I met the last time I was there, so that is promising. Two apprentices from NieuCommunities South Africa will also be going, and I hope to bond with them through the experience too before we head back to Pretoria to continue the apprenticeship.

Like I said, that is Plan A, and if it doesn’t happen, there are always other opportunities! I am extremely excited to be returning to South Africa regardless. Plan B would be to finish raising my support and return to South Africa by the end of May. As most of you know, I am joining the staff of NieuCommunities in Pretoria for at least the next two years, and am busy raising support for my time there. I will be helping to apprentice the new people coming through the apprenticeship as well as continuing my own ministry (with co-staff Barbara) of telling the stories of South African women. God has called me into this position and I don’t know exactly where it is leading me but I know it’s very very Good. I heard God say to me at the end of my apprenticeship year, “Sarah, I want to give you a new box.” And while I don’t know what’s in the box exactly yet, there is no doubt to me that it’s some exciting and awesome stuff.

So please stay tuned and I hope to update this at least one more time before I head back to South Africa- at least to let you know about whether I’m going to Rwanda or not! Please pray for courage, health, wisdom, stamina, and faith as I trust in God’s provision these next few weeks, share about my ministry vision, say goodbyes, attempt closure around some things, and prepare to travel- well, to move my life to Africa. Call me (503) 789-8971 if you want to chat, hear more, or get together. You could email me too: skwoolley.girl@gmail.com. Please look at the new things I’ve updated in my sidebar. “Keep well” as we say in South Africa, and I’ll be in touch. . .